Even mijn hart kwijt... - Is being shy bad?

i need a hug
i need a comforting hug
i was told that i was too shy
that i could have asked more
that i could have said more

i don't want to feel down
but this was a blow
to my confidence of what's left of it
after almost 3 years of struggle
i can't help it if i'm too shy
what can i do?

i can work very well
sometimes even better than some other people
i study hard
i learn fast
i am intelligent
2 bachelor degree's
3 master degree's

my only sin is just being shy
but is that so bad then?
i want to stay optimistic
but every day it becomes more and more difficult
when the things i hope for
the things i have worked for
the things i work for
the things i have built
one by one is taken away from me
just because my shyness is seen as a disadvantage
as a weakness
as a sign of lack of initiative
maybe the reason i do not ask a questions
is because i already understand the answer
but people do not see that i am intelligent for understanding the answer
they do not try to find out the real reason i do not ask question
they just see the surface
that i do not talk a lot
and based on that they label me as having no enthusiasm or initiative

is being shy so bad then?
that shy people will not get a place in the world?
that nothing good will come to shy people's way?
that shy people do not deserve a chance?

i am an introvert
every now and then i wish i was not
but i am
and i do not want to apologize for that
i can not
because that is part of who i am
and deep down i know
i am a good person
i am intelligent
and i can do a lot of things many others can not
and i can do them better than many others can
i just have to see the light at the end of the tunnel
to find my way
to save my confidence
to believe in myself again
to happiness

Graphic Tablet 3

More of my drawings using the graphic tablet:

Carnaval 2011 in Maastricht

Graphic Tablet 2

Today I decided to have another go at using a graphic tablet.
I managed to make a few drawings in 1.5 hours. Very raw.